Don't you ever feel sad without reason at all?at least not with a clear one. Some people don't get it and they attribute that "sadness" -let's call it that way for now- to a fight with your siblings, an exam you have to take, the weather, you in your period. It is not. Is not just a sadness. is something heavy inside you. It's anguish. Your chest hurts.It 's like carrying an invisible giant stone that you have to walk around with. It drains all your energy. it makes you hiper sensitive. You just can't award that feeling to anything in particular. You don't know when it begans. And the most scary thing is that you can't know when is gonna be over. You have that feeling that maybe never. All is wrong, you can't see a positive thing and you just want to rest and cry until your eyes hurts. Sorry, wrong words, you provably don't want to but you just have to because everything it's just too much.
Yes i feel like crap and i dont even know why. But it's okay. Whatever you feel can't be wrong. It's just what it is, period. Trust me, it's not always gonna be this shitty. You gonna get over it and just move on. And some other time in a near future you gonna wake up feeling bad again and that's okay because you know that you gonna get through it and every time you fall for it and raise again you'll became a stronger human being. That's what i told myself anyway and i think that is true.
If you are having one of those days just let it be and don't blame yourself for being like that and not be able to do things that you are suppoused to do. You have to accept it and pass the day without any remorse. If other person criticizes you, well, they don't get it. Just don't listen to them.
Hope this help someone.
Have a nice day. I am sure if you have a shitty day, you have your motives to be like how you are, even if you don't really know what's going on.
V.
